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Friday, April 10th, 2015
7:25 pm - Please Help Titus | Nonprofits - YouCaring.com
Titus and his household could use a helping paw/hand. If you have a buck to spare, please consider tossing it in the pot.
Please Help Titus | Nonprofits - YouCaring.com

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Tuesday, March 24th, 2015
5:48 am - Please Help Titus | Nonprofits - YouCaring.com
Please Help Titus | Nonprofits - YouCaring.com

If you have anything to spare, or can spread this sweet goy's dilemma around, he could sure use the help.

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Friday, December 26th, 2014
12:01 am - Happy Wintermas!
This year, this Christmas/.Giftmas, was the best one in a long time. Much less stress, even if there was more of me being in pain. I think everyone went away happy, content, full of good food (omg, best prime rib ever!) and with a nice array of the perfect, much appreciated gifts.

Ardyn bought me a Ukelele, somethign I have been wanting for a very long time, but never felt brave enough to buy for myself. Now I have no excuse, I need to learn! His name is Hani Keawe, Happy Thread, which seems most suitable for the tidy, simple handsome boy he is, and the instrument of a fiber addict..

We gave my mother many nice things, but the biggest thing is a large sepia print of my wyfe, me, my two sisters and mum sitting together at a holiday table laughing, with the title Gladney Women. She cried and we were extremely proud.

Socks for the siters and the mum and fancy gift bags for the more mundane gifts, like gift cards and such. The H sib got me wonderful fairy tale cookbooks I have coveted for a while, the B sib got us a beautiful lantern for our bedroom, and Ardyn got Moscow Mule copper mugs, a lovely hand made skirt, and the muchly useful gift of shopping!

Everyone got something handmade and personal, everyone got something practical and something fun, and everyone enjoyed each other's company, no fuss , no drama, and the teens behaved as perfectly as I could have asked, we even all made music together, and I have promised to learn enough basic chords to play with the singing next year, gulp.

I am in a fair bit of pain, but I don't evne mind, I am just ...

content. It is a nice feeling.


Meet Hani Keawe. Isn't he handsome?

.Hani ukulele

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Tuesday, December 9th, 2014
4:55 pm - Hard times come again no more
I am ok, first off, not good, but ok and surviving. I'm not in any danger of losing my roof, or going hungry, and the necessary bills are paid, there will be a small giftmas for the family.

But I'm not doing great. I've seemingly lost some of my love of all things Wintermas, and I am so very tired of feeling like all gifts I bother to try and accomplish will not be appreciated.

I am having some unfun flareup issues, including depression, exhaustion and being at a higher pain level more consistently than I like.

A lot of it is purely accomodation issues. Our bed is breaking down, so I don't recover as easily, our office chairs are old and tired, which means they are even farther from ergonomic than they started, which was not great. There are issues of needing desperately to clean up, without the spoons to do it, even though cleaning up would help with having the ability to do more things and regenerating more spoons.

I keep trying to make do or do without, but it is significantly frustrating to know that with a little more money, a little more oomph, a little more whatever, this could be a magical season, instead of being the second or third year in a row of feeling like a failure and my normal wintermas cheer turned to depression. I want to be doing all the crafting, but I am falling further and further behind where I wanted to be.

I am unsure how to fix this, really, other than just letting it be, doing what can be done, and waiting for things to improve, which they generally do, and try really hard to plan for next year, much farther in advance.

I need to figure out a way of getting around the depression, I need to find work arounds for the accomodation issues while I wait for them to be fixed. (yes they are being worked on, its just slow going and affected by money) I need to stop whinging and get up every day to go drag through the craft work that I want to have done, whether I feel like it or not.

At least it is all FWP and I don't have to be afraid of losing our housing or starving, and we do have some things planned and a scheduled family thing. Mostly, it is in my head, and I really wish my brain weasels would be evicted.

current mood: depressed

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Wednesday, December 3rd, 2014
12:59 am - Obligatory Holiday Wishes link
http://holiday-wishes.livejournal.com/2125426.html?view=32071026#t32071026

I forgot to add my amazon wishlist on there, so, yanno, here. http://amzn.com/w/1W30FUCW1U9E4

Please do not consider this any kind of obligation? I would genuinely love to hear about your donations or your traditions or what have you as much as I would love something from the Amazon list (which I use mainly as a reminder catch tbh).

current mood: cheerful

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Tuesday, February 11th, 2014
6:46 pm - Hospital Stays and Mental Health.
Friday, I had a really good, but very active day. I spun for longer than I probably should have and knit for a while after that while hanging out with my wyfe. I went to bed a little tired, a little achy, but not too bad. By 1 am, I felt a bit queasy, but not bad enough to worry and I fell asleep.

Saturday AM waking up to use the facilities, I was dizzy and more than queasy. Temp taken, climbing, but not too bad, I probably have that cold that's been passed around more times than your average ball at the Superb Owl. Took my tylenol, tried to go back to sleep, resolving to just have a rest and feel rotten day. By noon, I had taken an aspirin as well, and the temp was climbing faster than either Ardyn or I were happy with, and upon visual inspection of my problematic leg, we headed to the ER with the suspicion of Celluitis. I as quite queasy, but not actually throwing up yet and that means nothing like water, because throwing up is no fun. Sure enough, that's what it was and the very nice, very competent and soothing ER nurses and blood draw lady tried to find viable blood draw and I.V. sites in dehydrated me, all while apologizing profusely for having to stick me so much. I was admitted and have just spent the last few days in a Local Hospital named after a founding father.

The nursing staff were all friendly and funny as well as competent, and if the Doctor was a bit brisk, she was also quite competent and thorough, albeit concise. She did make sure all my questions were answered and that I understood everything.
Oddly, I sleep really really badly when i'm sick. It's worse in Hospital mostly because the beds make my pain levels spike.  It was a running joke the first full day I was there. I would literally fall asleep, have less than 45 minuted before someone would come in and wake me up to ask me something or prod me with something, usually a sharp something or something to make some part of me give up its information under duress.

It was also a running joke that everytime someone came into the room I had to myself, they would fling open the bed curtain. Ardyn would pull it partially closed and the next person would fling it open. They also don't like the doors being partly closed, which is the only thing besides the noise of a TV that would filter out the sound of the nurse busy doing nursely things.

I found out that I don't sleep well, because I don't feel secure at night on my own. There is no control of entry and exit and no idea of when I would be shaken awake with an "I'm sorry for waking you, WLB, but I need to (fill in activity here)" They also liked to show up to take me places or draw blood right as I was using the facilities.

When the Wee Wyfey was sitting there with me, I'd konk right out and actually get a full rem cycle.  Our buddy, who is between billets and homes at the moment, came back from drill just in time to drive her to and from the hospital and make sure she was sleeping too. (He's in the Navy Reserves as a Corpsman, handy to have around for the logic filter!) So she would go home and fall over after dinner and then show back up in the mid morning at which point I would be able to sleep.

The nurses were awesome, but Oy Vey this one pair of PTs. I know they meant well, but when you have awoken me, out of the first real sleep I have managed to snatch in 24+ hours, I have told you just how little rest I have actually gotten, the schedule of things I have already been asked to do, told you my normal routine and activity levels. I have told you that my pain level is higher than I can really handle unmedicated, but I'm trying to avoid the narcotics, (because no one wants bathroom issues in the hospital). This is not the time to push my comfort level. Make sure I can stand safely, walk safely, handle basic motor things, assess and then actively listen to your patient, GO AWAY YOU ANNOYING LITTLE PAIR and let me finally sleep. Sadly, my darling wyfe had stepped out to grab lunch, or I would have had back up.

You should know, if you do not, that I am mobility impaired. I can't walk long distances without inducing asthma and significant pain. I can go little distances at a time, in slow small chunks with many stops. I am also fat and someone who has a large degree of difficulty in self-advocating when it comes to issues around exercise and pain.  I ended up needing to take the narcotic option despite the possible further bathroom issues.
The PT yesterday was  better than the first pair. She did very carefully check in with my pain levels and tiredness levels and making sure I wasn't over extending, while trying to challenge me a little bit. Wasn't her fault that I ended up having to do an unexpected twenty billionty things after she left and getting in and out of the bed and did not sleep last night.
The male of the annoying pair had the nerve to show up today, the day I'm being discharged, and try to argue with both the Wee Wyfey and The Corpsman that I should do a full circuit of the ward, "just to make sure she's getting exercise."
Ardyn actually made him back off,  being Firm and Polite, in *that* voice. The Corpsman used Lingo at him and The WW, after more than 10 minutes of his trying to argue with her, told him "She will be exercising, the house we are in is not accessible. If you add this to her activity today, she will be unsafe when trying to get into the house." I would have given up and done the walk, in my scrabbled together clothing because the gowns did not fit well at all. I would have then been sobbing in pain as I tried to get into my sister's house. The Corpsman and The Wee Wyfey are highly recommended as patient advocates.

There is a very big difference between making sure your patient is safely moving around in a way to help healing and progression, challenging them a bit(see above good PT), and insisting on pushing the patient in a bullying manner. They both mean well (one hopes), but the second PT did it right. I was tired and a bit sore after our session, and had I not had the Doc schedule a couple painful proceedures, and had I been there more than the three days I was, having her consistently work with me would have vastly improved my recovery rate and progression outside of the Hospital. She engaged me as a patient, and let me advocate for myself, making sure to check in on me and give me lots of breaks to catch my breath and asses my actual pain levels. The first pair, especially the male, were not actually acknowledging me as an intelligent participant in my own PT, and did not check in with me for pain references except briefly at the beginning and end of the session. After they left, I was visibly upset and after the lone therapist left I was worn out, but not upset.
As it was, I did just fine, got in on mostly my own power, sat up for a while to catch my breath and walked the eleventy billion miles back to the bedroom and laid down. I have even gotten back up and cleaned the Hospital funk off me. And, my pain levels are down to something easily handled by a single motrin and very careful assisted stretching.
Everyone else was nice and competent, but oofdah I could have shaken that one PT by his annoying "okaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy."

I am *finally* home on lovely anti-biotics and so much yogurt I can't even fathom it.
And *now* I can watch skating, and knit the big and hefty rainbow shawl I had just started.
After 20 hours of sleep. Maybe 30.

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Thursday, January 9th, 2014
2:51 pm - So. Um. Whoa?
So, as some of you who read me know, I am a rainbow person, and a knitter/spinning/anythingwithfiberreally person.

There was recently, on Ravelry (fiber related social network) a rainbow related controversy, that is slowly and painfully being resolved, in a good growth and eventually positive way.

As a thank you for other rainbow supporters, I went to the three main groups who had participants in our big discussions who were vocal, active and polite but firm in support of rainbow related free speech. I offered my one pattern that I have up for sale in those groups (and anyone else who wanted) for free, to say thank you.

I didn't really think much about it, didn't really think many people would actually click through and download a relatively simple, kinda geekily named sock pattern, when there are thousands of free sock patterns available.

My little sock pattern is now sitting at number 1 on the What's Hot list of available patterns.

On a site of 3.8 million members.

Um.

I'm a little befuddled and shocked and a tiny bit scared, because...

What if it sucks, guys? What if I'm a horrible pattern writer and everyone hates it and any chance of selling anything else ever is ruined because I wanted to say thanks?

So, um.

YAY! but Whoa.

Here's the socks!

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Thursday, January 2nd, 2014
8:29 am - Jazzz, gimme some red hot jazz, baby.

I love to cook, as people who know me will affirm. I love to bake as well, but..there is not as much freedom in baking, at least, not for me. You have to have exactly the right proportions, put in in the right order and follow directions. At least, I do, or I get flat inedible hunks of dough.


But when I cook anything else, I rarely cook it exactly the same way twice.


It’s Jazz, baby. Like when Pops Louie Armstrong pulls out that horn and holds it ready in one hand, and suddenly, the simplest song you know becomes something beyond its melody.


My family are big fans of what I lovingly call Root Stew, f’r example. The ingredients change based on what I happen to have in the kitchen, the spices vary by how much we need to be warmed up or calmed down. Beyond the idea that the base soup contains root vegetables, it has yet to be the same dish twice for the last 15 years I’ve been making it.


It’s an easy enough concept, really, slice various exotic root veggies into thin slices, shove them in a broth, and let them cook in the slow cooker for a day, adding variations on spice as desired.


But that’s kinda like saying Pops was a trumpet player. It’s true, but not quite the whole story, y’know?


On this cold New Year’s Day, Root Stew Jazz contained, fennel root from our farm box, leftover leeks, the last of the old onions to clear the basket for the new and a few potatoes for creaminess. Add in a bit of chicken stock, a bit of lemon pepper, and garlic salt (because I was out of garlic) and a good chunk of the savory herbs I keep around. Enough to make pretty colours on the top of the broth, cover and put in the slow cooker from lunch time until everyone gets hungry for dinner. Simple, but...


When you change small things, like add sweet potato and take away the fennel, more leek, less onion, handfuls of frozen garlic cloves instead of garlic salt. Maybe today you have a bit of freezer burned mystery meat, still good, but not a great texture, throw that in and you change the broth. Do you take a stick blender to it just before serving and add Sriracha? Maybe you don’t feel like spice today, but want extra creaminess so you add a bit of grated cheese.


Sometimes it is clear and spicy with big chunks and the broth makes you warm to your toes. Sometimes it’s blended smooth and so thick and creamy it can hold the spoon upright and its just salt and pepper.

Sometimes its more sweet than savory, yams and sweet potatoes and that one last apple, that isn’t bad, but you really don’t want to eat it plain.


It’s Jazz, baby. Swinging hard with a beat you can’t help but bounce to, or slow and sultry, the vocals making you sweat, or soft and melancholy, the blues taking the wheel. Somedays that stew is solid enough and rich enough to feed the work crew at midday in 20 degree weather as they clear ground, sometimes it’s barely more than heat in broth, enough to clear out your ancestor’s sinuses. But always, always love in the middle.


You can label everything that went in the dish, but even so, it’s never the same dish twice, even with all the same base ingredients.


You can tell the Artists from the Technicians in Jazz and in cooking. I make no claim to be either, but my heart follows the Artists.


All my love,

L

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Tuesday, May 7th, 2013
2:00 pm - What I *can* do
So Im talking to my sister about how to help out an about to be new mum, a girl that is having a harder time than she really should be having, someone pointed out to us by , one of Taunya's projects. I know my mum is sending off a quilt, and I can knit up a small hat and sweater, we threw a little tiny bit of money at them.

I can't change the circumstances, I can't go back in time and make her husband not have to go through his hell. I can't affect politics and make people in power stop being war-mongers, or give better benefits to soldiers or fix a thousand things that lead to this one girl, struggling when she shouldn't have to. Or any of the about to be mums out there who need help.

But, I can knit a little hat and sweater for this one. I can help my mum send off a baby quilt. I can send a bit of spare cash and wait a month for a new set of knitting needles.

This girl I can send something to, I can give her something to hold in her hands and give her just a tiny bit more cope and something useful and a little bit special to hold on to.

I can't do big things, or big changes to the world, but, I can do this for this girl, this time.

It makes a difference to *me* that I can help in this way this time, and I hope it makes even a small difference to her and her husband and their soon-to-be son.


current mood: contemplative

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Sunday, April 21st, 2013
7:27 am - During all this...
I worry when I see people blaming entire segments of humanity for the actions of the insane. I worry when people are forced into the box of the "other" that we should fear.
All people have the potential to be vehicles of grace and beauty, all people have the potential to be vehicles of hatred and violence.
Just in case it is not absolutely clear, that I have not said it clearly enough.
I do not care what your faith is labeled.
I do not care if you fit into a size 2 or a size 40
I do not care if you are pale or dark or somewhere in between, or how you wear your hair, or whether you have tattoos, if you identify as either gender or both or neither or if it varies depending on the day of the week.
I care if you are a caring and compassionate person.
I care if you treat those around you with honor, with kindness and as much patience as you can.
I care if you are someone with whom I can hold a conversation, and, even if we passionately disagree, we do so respectfully.
There should be love, compassion, kindness and understanding in the middle of all this. There will always be excuses to hate, there will always be an "all this." Love anyway, be kind anyway, think before you lash out.

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Friday, December 21st, 2012
5:23 pm - ZOMG If I have to face a failed apocalypse..
... I am doing it with   browngirl   's  hyacinth's honey fruitcake.

Seriously, you guys, this stuff could be food of life, celebrated by Gods/God/Dog/TheWhateverFromHighAtopTheThing.

Thank you, thank you for including us, it is even now sustaining me through the longest night while I read audiobooks about warrior cats for a friend and client.

Zomg, so good. And so moist the paper wrapping it was sticky and you could smell the fruit in it as soon as I tore a tiny bit of the clingfilm...

Yum.


You are so jealous you aren't me right now, you don't even know.

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Sunday, December 2nd, 2012
8:11 pm - My wishlist for the curious, Crossposted to Holiday Wishes
Hi! I am Leslie, 43, with an amazing wife, 2 cats, and a chihuahua. I knit, a crochet, I sew, I quilt, I cross-stitch, and a few other things. 

This year is a good year for us, even if the money is a wee bit tight. We've had enough extra during the year to get supplies for me to make things, and enough this month and last to buy the few things on our list.  I argued with myself about whether to make a wish list in Holiday Wishes, or just to answer a few and call it good. 

I was persuaded to make one anyways.

1) Buy independant, local and artizanal, if you can. My sister makes a small amount of money that helps her little family get by and I know what that one extra purchase means to her. Not just for money, but to have her work appriciated. If you are int he market for small art or craft related things, and you need a gift, and have a little extra, take a look at her store in Etsy, artbeco. 

2) I'm often bored and stuck laying down. I do knit, but lack of noise makes me feel more frustrated than I need to be. Reccommend documentaries or movies or music, send me some links. I have netflix and hulu and all. Unexpected cheerful holiday themes would be lovely. Especially for Chanukkah! We are a multi-cultural house, Jew, Pagan, and Unitarian, so we would love it all.

3) I would dearly love beautiful and interesting paper and ribbons to wrap the handmade things in, send me some of your fave paper, or link me to it!

4) I am currently working on the hard bit of writing a pattern book that revolves around tea. Send me intersting quotes, or tell me stories (happy ones!), send me images of beautiful tea sets/cozies/parties, give me your favorite recipies! 

5) I am hoping to learn to spin this coming year, so link me to good instructional videos, send me that spindle or spinning book that is gathering dust.  What I fail spinning, I am hoping to use to make some fun felted stuff, send me your wool!

7) We would love holiday cards, getting mail that is not a catalog or a bill is a gift in itself. Bonus points if it is something you made or found to be different and lovely.

8) I love ornaments! Send me links or patterns for hand made things (I fail at woodworking, but I love looking at them!) or even send us something you made!

9) I have the obligatory amazon and ravelry wish lists, obvs, http://amzn.com/w/1W30FUCW1U9E4 and I am LadyBearLeslie on Rav.

10) I particiapte in a group that does a once a week Random Act of Pattern on Ravelry. Do something similar, give someone you barely know something small but nice, that they aren't expecting (like this!), answer a wish on one of these lists, send someone something you created, or something to help them be creative. It makes a big difference to people, even when it is a tiny thing, a 2 dollar pattern, or a simple snowflake. The act of giving, nothing too huge, nothing overwhelming, makes everythign seem a little bit brighter, and recieving something random like that makes me smile all day long.

Most importantly. Share love and joy, go out of your way to help out when you can and smile at people in the street and the store. Be nice to people, you will be surprised at how it ripples outward.

Love and light, and warm wishes.

Hit me up for our address if you're sending something!

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Wednesday, November 7th, 2012
8:36 am - Patriotism is not just for white men.
I may or may not have been too jazzed to sleep last night, and there may or may not have been fiercely patriotic sock knitting as a result.

'Course sock knitting tends to lead to fierceness over whatever the object of the moment is, but still!

Fiercely. (stab, wrap, pull, tug firmly) Patriotic. (repeat in other direction)

Small actions yield big results, each one like a stitch in a sock or a hat or a blanket, or a nation that refuses to go backwards.

I am so proud that we have more women in the senate now than we have ever had. We have our first disabled woman, our first openly gay person ever, who happens to be a woman, and our first Asian-American woman. We have Elizabeth Warren, who won despite being a hot headed, loud mouthed, opinionated woman who was out raised and hard fought.

Rape and hatred lost out to reason, just a little bit last night and we did find a way to shut that shit down. Not all of it, by a long shot, but some, and big men lost because people said "Hey, yanno what, that is not ok."

A biracial, moderate man got re-elected for the highest office in the land and a rich, loudly religious, anti-gay, anti-health-care, anti-reproductive rights, radically conservative white man lost.

Think about that for a minute. People didn't have to die to let us have as say in how we wanted this country to be last night. We went and put our marks down, and, by and large, it was recorded accurately and a dark skinned man proved it was not a fluke that he got elected the first time.

That is a miracle right there, my darlings. The man who spent the most money didn't win.

Tiny, small actions, $4 at a time, or $10, or $65 and people yelling on the internet and calling and walking precincts and having family discussions made for national debate with passion and reason. For the first time, more than a few people were doing their research, and earnestly trying to figure out and work on what they believed would be the best thing for all of us.

My guy won, that is an amazing and joyful thing for me today, I will feel more safe tomorrow, knowing he won. But I must say, to all of you, whether or not you voted for my guy.

I'm so proud of us. All of us.

Lookee what we did, we made each other talk, and we made each other think, and we brought new, loud and passionate and knowledgeable voices to the national table.  My 11 year old nephew is passionate about politics now, because of us and our willingness to do this noble experiment every four years. I hope he never loses that excitement, and I hope he challenges me to explain my stances, and why I am voting the way I do, every single time it comes up.

Small actions, one at a time, each one a stitch in our national fabric, each one part of what adds to our human potential, each one as important as the others, each one a foundation for the following row.

My sock will be done tonight, or tomorrow and worn with pride and love by my wyfe, who likes fierce, passionate things, like she loves this country she has adopted. Fierce, passionate, made up of small people, no two exactly the same, but all part of one beautiful nation.




current mood: hopeful

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Sunday, October 28th, 2012
12:36 am - I am Prime, baby, PRIME!
So, I am 43 now, and for my birthday I failed to have a hot shower as the water heater decided it was too depressed to live and started crying on the inside (and all over the garage floor). But, at least there was cake. Delicious Cake.

And doggy humiliation. *snicker*




current mood: amused

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Wednesday, August 22nd, 2012
2:02 pm - A home of our own
 My beautiful wyfe and I are just starting the process of working towards a home of our own, something we’ve never been completely sure would happen. We are balancing paying down debt and building credit with trips and saving and paying taxes and regular bills. The trips keep us from going crazy, and if we do it right, help us with her citizenship and establishing good credit.

As a result, we’ve been talking about what we *need* in a house versus what we want. I have to have a bathroom that works with my damaged body and we both need a big kitchen with reasonably accessible cabinetry and work surfaces. We really need a place that gives me the ability to do physical therapy, even if it just means being close enough to a gym with a pool for me to get there regularly. Or our own pool, which would be better, as I would be in that sucker every day. My particular damage needs water to help me get more mobility.

What we want, is a home. We want a place with dark wood floors and a fireplace, with homemade soft rugs for the animals to sleep on. A place with furniture from a dozen different eras that is useful and beautiful and eclectic.

We want a bright kitchen with as much light as we can get without being able to fry an egg on the floor in the summer, with appliances that won’t eat our limited income up in electricity. We both would rather have big buffet for storage over a standard set of cabinets. We want someplace that is fun to cook in, and easy to clean up with space for a real table and chairs. A dine-in kitchen where dine-in doesn't mean a tiny folding table and french chairs. A famr kitchen, meant to be lived in.


We want a home, with lace curtains and a yard that is a little overgrown but not so much so that we can’t use it. A few raised beds so I can have fresh herbs without pain, fresh tomatoes in the summer and fresh greens in the winter. A yard for dogs to run around like puppies, for visiting kids to find secrets in. Someplace not so huge that we can't keep it, but not so small that it is all concrete and pots.

I want a place to sit comfortably, that won’t hurt my back and will let me put my legs up. Someplace with good lighting and a place to put yarn and fabric and thread and buttons and books on what stirs my creativity. Sturdy bookcases or old buffets with big glass apothecary jars to store my beautiful yarn in, with shelves behind glass to see my fabrics, neatly folded and shelves behind doors to hide the clutter of tools and extra things. Maybe a big corkboard for bits of design and buttons and the like. Someplace where friends and family can come and settle to work on their chosen creations and be cheered by it.

She wants a place to sit, with friends and without, with music and movies and games and books, a fireplace for cheery warmth in the winter and dancing candlelight in the summer. Someplace to be rowdy and cheerful in that will change to a soothing place.

She wants an office, something with drawers and shelves and all the desk space she could ever need, with space for a guest or two to be able to hang out with her as she works, someplace that will energize and invigorate, make working as close to fun as it can be. Actually that sound rather nice for me too, but I doubt I need both an office and a studio space.

We want a place for guests to come, and stay a few days if they like, a restful quiet space with comfortable bed and a chair, someplace they can retreat to when the rest of the house is too rowdy. We both like to watch our movies and shows with vigor and appreciation and we know too many introverts not to want to give them a space to be without all that.

We want a bedroom that is intimate without being cloying, someplace for romance and rest, someplace easy to keep tidy but not fussy.


It is closer than it has ever been and now, now I am homesick for a home I do not have yet, someplace that is ours, that has our touch and our mark on it, someplace for dogs and cats and friends and family, for craft and creativity, growth and rest. A place to cook with just us or with a crowd. Someplace that suits having a Christmas tree decorating party with kids and noise and laughter as well as a quiet dinner with another couple or two with good conversation.

I love my sister’s house, but is not what I would do. I love my mother’s house, but it is not ours.

I want to go home, and it is just over that other hill, just a little bit farther. I’ve never been there but I know it is home.






current mood: restless

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Thursday, June 7th, 2012
11:07 am - My mother's house
My mother's house is an interesting place, and she and my older sister have a relaxed air about taking care of the yard. IT's more than a little wild and a little wonderful, even if I do swear at the overgrowth and swear everytime an overgrown tree catches on my hair as I try to leave the house.

But it does mean we have wonderful things in our yard, mysteries and magic. Right now, we have a fledgling Mourning Dove in a nest , in a hanging pot literally less than five feet from our front door and right in front of our windows. This is the second clutch of the second spring we have had birds nested in that plant and it makes my heart glad every time I see them.

Magic is not always wands and incantations and wizardry. Sometimes it is just giving Nature, with its indomitable will to survive in our suburbs, a bit of its own, a bit of tangled green and the familiarity of close observation. 

We talk to these birds as we go in and out, never touching them, but always around and close by. We pay attention to them, make sure their nest doesn't get knocked around too much and make sure that its tied down fast in high winds.

I love living with this kind of daily wonder, I want it in my own home when we get one. Maybe with a bit less hair tangling though.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RD1dorULZQc&feature=youtu.be


current mood: happy

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Thursday, February 23rd, 2012
6:58 pm - February blogging
Here, have a link to my musing on February and craft.

http://www.thirdprincess.com



current mood: awake

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Wednesday, January 25th, 2012
7:34 pm - The fiasco continues but with more scope
Originally posted by electricdruid at The fiasco continues

ACTA in a Nutshell –

What is ACTA?  ACTA is the Anti-Counterfeiting Trade Agreement. A new intellectual property enforcement treaty being negotiated by the United States, the European Community, Switzerland, and Japan, with Australia, the Republic of Korea, New Zealand, Mexico, Jordan, Morocco, Singapore, the United Arab Emirates, and Canada recently announcing that they will join in as well.

Why should you care about ACTA? Initial reports indicate that the treaty will have a very broad scope and will involve new tools targeting “Internet distribution and information technology.”

What is the goal of ACTA? Reportedly the goal is to create new legal standards of intellectual property enforcement, as well as increased international cooperation, an example of which would be an increase in information sharing between signatory countries’ law enforcement agencies.

Essential ACTA Resources

  • Read more about ACTA here: ACTA Fact Sheet
  • Read the authentic version of the ACTA text as of 15 April 2011, as finalized by participating countries here: ACTA Finalized Text
  • Follow the history of the treaty’s formation here: ACTA history
  • Read letters from U.S. Senator Ron Wyden wherein he challenges the constitutionality of ACTA: Letter 1 | Letter 2 | Read the Administration’s Response to Wyden’s First Letter here: Response
  • Watch a short informative video on ACTA: ACTA Video
  • Watch a lulzy video on ACTA: Lulzy Video

Say NO to ACTA. It is essential to spread awareness and get the word out on ACTA.

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Tuesday, January 10th, 2012
7:44 pm - Happy day!
I am married 8 years today to the best woman I have ever known. I love you. I can't believe we are still so goofy in love with each other and you still make me giggle until I can't breathe, and take my breath away with your smile.

I must have done something really really right at some point to have deserved you.
I am so proud to be able to say "I am Ardyn's wyfe." and so proud of you.


current mood: happy

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Sunday, January 1st, 2012
6:00 pm - Political concern
I had a nightmare today that awoke me in tears. Police officers were erecting walls around large places of peaceful public protest and denying the occupants access to food, water and other essentials, including people who merely happened to live in the affected area.
My wife and I sat and talked about the possibility of that being a reality as a result of the current policies and the dream's resemblance to 1931. We discussed whether I should back down from my open political stance and whether I should not speak up and out about my nightmare. We are scared, my friends, as you should be. But someone has to say something, not just people in the streets, but everyday people who live everyday lives. So, with more than a little trepidation, here is a public copy of what I sent out just now.

Open letter to my elected representatives, who are all women.

I heard today that President Obama signed the NDAA into law this morning. This literally terrifies me enough to give me nightmares. I need to know that the woman I voted for, that I support for public office has some sort of plan to restore the civil rights stripped by this law. I understand the need to fund the military, but this law was badly written and conceived and violates all tenants of what it is to be American, that we are guaranteed certain rights.

Please explain to me that you are doing something about this, that I do not need to have nightmares about a police state happening here as it did in certain places in 1931.
Leslie E Gladney

Open letter to President Obama


I am significantly concerned about your decision to sign NDAA into law with its destruction of large parts of the Bill of Rights. As President it is a large part of your sworn duty to protect and defend the Constitution, and this law, as you must know, since you expressed severe reservations, violates that sacred duty and oath.

I am deeply concerned and scared, Mr. President, about what your signature predicts for the future of our beloved country. It is not the legacy I would have wished for you when I voted for you. 

I have literal nightmares about the future consequences of your action, and America deserved better from you, Sir. 



So, I humbly ask you to do the same. It may not seem like much, but it is something you can do. If you find this law scary, if you think it is a wrong move, please, please write to the folks who represent you and say so, express your concern. Who knows, maybe I'll be proven to be afraid of the dark and a worry wart. Please prove me to be worrying over nothing. Write.


current mood: scared

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